2025 Lessons in Moving
This was the year of selling all of my things and moving to Hawai’i
This was the year of finally leaving my tech job and believing in Awake In Wellness
This was the year of leaving behind what felt comfortable: the relationship, the community in Denver, and the yoga studio I dearly loved
What did I learn from these destabilizing pivots in career, home and relationships?
Even when you make the external changes to land all that you desire, the inner wounds remain.
I truly thought I had been “doing the work” since waking up to the truth of who I am and guiding others along this path. But this year served as a reminder, I am human too and I too deserve to have human moments.
Home
For the past 4 years, I had been manifesting a move to Hawai’i. You know when you have such a strong calling that you’d know you regret your life if you didn’t just try it? That was Hawai’i for me. I had zero idea how it would happen but 2 boyfriends, 2 cities later and many new moon rituals later- I made it here. I spent the first half of 2025 preparing for this big move. Getting my dog’s paperwork in order. The lease. The logistics. Shipping my car. Selling all of my stuff. Truly being an adult.
This was the first time I moved to a place on my own accord. Completely single, no partner, no job taking me here. The freedom was liberating but also fueled by guilt. When I first arrived, I actually felt quite undeserving to be here. How can I give back? How can I contribute?
Almost overnight, leaving a community I had cultivated in Denver to no one knowing my story was jarring to say the least. Connecting to the ocean, sand, and the ‘āina (the endearing term for land in Hawaiian) grounded me but I felt a deep longing for community. To build community, you have to show up. But my first few times showing up, it really brought this insecure core wound of social anxiety.
Being brand new to the yoga studio and no one coming up to make me feel welcomed. Showing up alone to places and not knowing a SINGLE soul while everyone was with their families, close friends and their “groups”.
Re-introducing myself, what I do, where I came from over and over and over and over again.
“I moved here because I felt so connected in the past and welcomed, why do I feel so disconnected?”
“Is something wrong with me? Am I giving off a misaligned energy?”
Then I realized the pressure I was putting on myself. Again. I am so grateful to my support system far and wide that reminded me that things just take time. I moved to Hawai’i to embrace a slower life, regulate and connect spiritually yet I still felt the need to be moving, doing and rushing through life.
My greatest learning:
Awake In Wellness is all about embracing stillness, releasing the guilt to do and just be. With this major move compounded with major career shifts, I recognized there was an incongruency in what I was offering and how I was living. Allowing myself to be human, I embraced that life moves in seasons. My slow living in 2022-2023 was a different season than the transitional momentum in 2024-2025. Balance was the greatest lesson - weaving stillness into seasons of activity. Understanding that stillness is my internal consistency when the outside world is turbulent and unfamiliar. Showing up authentically from this place of consistent internal stillness, taking each day as it goes and trusting in the unfolding of time to build community.
2025 Astrology Wrapped Virtual Retreat
Offer yourself the space and reflection by looking back at your year through the lens of Astrology. Join me in a year-end reflection 3 hour virtual retreat with yoga, meditation, and journaling guided by the wisdom of astrology.
